Maturing Sentiments

As a teenager, I remember being very sociable and expressive with my words, and sometimes being so childish. I'm letting go of all my annoyance over anything that happened, and sometimes people around me had a difficult time because of me.

In my early 20s, I lived through a number of different, what I like to call, “learning experiences”. I remember feeling so confused and lost in a rush of emotions that I wasn’t able to verbally express in real words. I tried my best to write them down hoping that one day the words might come together and manifest a personal testimony. Looking back at them now, most of my thoughts were around family and relationships. This was when my strongest feelings, opinions and triggers were being formed subconsciously.

Now in my mid-20s, I find myself living through a different set of obstacles. Career-related goals, personal development, health maintenance, etc are what consume the majority of my mental capacity; but at the end of the day, everything winds down to the well-being and happiness of my immediate family. Family and relationships are what I most passionately talk about, laugh about, and cry most heart-achingly about.

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As I grow older, I feel that it gets harder to stand emotionally aloof in certain situations; I find myself sharing stories and sentiments, empathizing and sympathizing with people’s experiences in life, the good and the bad. I’ve also realized that the things that make me get attached to people, laugh about and cry about with them have changed over time.

I think the things that trigger tears are indications of how we’ve lived our lives thus far and what is most important to us.

And as we grow older too, we learn to appreciate (more and more) the fruitful conversations we have with those that have stuck around to be "friends". there's nothing in the world that can replace the people we have in our lives - keep them close to your heart and be thankful always.