Psychoday Diary

I learned that it's okay not to be okay. But also that everything goes away... sadness and happiness, none of them last forever. So we might as well take care of ourselves and appreciate every tiny joy and victory without taking anything for granted. Because the good times are here but the bad times will also come someday, and they will dissapear again, and another times will come and so on. So we just got to learn how to deal with it. Don't waste your energy or time with things that don't matter. ..... Yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come... So, all we got is today. Let's make something positive with it. Pict source :https://i.pinimg.com/564x/dd/35/8a/dd358a1392b952f5e4a10bd6a4800ac0.jpg

For my hero, mama ..... The first time I lived away from home was in university. The afternoon of the move,I was with my mom and my brother, who were seeing me off in airport. It's hard to leave them - leaving my old life, leaving my brother, my mom, my grandma, especially; went to the land of my father for the first time, beside study in university.  In the summer of 2013, a few months after I moved in, I lost my grandma. It was the biggest punch in the history of my life - losing the important one.  I spent my whole life since I was born until 19 years old of me with my grandma. I can said that my grandma is my parents at that time. I always remember the day my grandma left me for the first time for visited my uncle, I often flip through timeworn photos of my grandma, missing her like crazy (I think it proves that I really can't live without her - at that time when I was a naive kid). Four months after this tragedy, the other tragedy was come in and that all make me

Laugh, even when you feel too sick or too worn out or tired. Smile, even when you're trying not too cry and the tears are blurring your vision. Sing, even when people stare at you and tell you that your voice is creepy. Trust, even when your heart begs you not to. Twirl, even when your mind makes no sense of what you see. Frolick, even when you are made fun of. Kiss, even when others are watching. Sleep, even when you're afraid of what the dreams might bring. Run, even when it feels like you can't run anymore. And ... Always, remember, even when memories pinch your heart. Because the pain of all your experience is what makes you the person you are now. And without your experience you are an empty page, a blank notebook, a missing lyric. What makes you brave is your willingness to live trough your terrible life and hold your head up high the next day. So, don't live life in fear. Because you're strong now, after all the crap has happened,

Last December being 24 Mixed feeling. ..... Learned so much on my 24th year of living. From the power of kindness, compassion, to admitting fault and imperfections graciously, and surrendering to God all my life, and my future. ..... Life is a constant battle. It's a wheel of constant learning and moving. Failing, understanding yourself further and pushing further into growth. It is full of surprises, and your plans may not work the way you wanted it, but at the end of the day, there are just too many things beyond our control. The only thing that defines our path is how we react to those unplanned situations. ..... I still have so much to learn, so much to live for. So many failures to experiences, So many victories to achieve, So many people to learn. From love and care for. ..... And I'm so thankful for all the lessons and love that I have received this far. ..... 24, surprise me... I'm ready to expand my horizons further and get the next

2019 … You’re good enough, and you can do it.  *** Remembering of what I went thru last year, to be completely honest, it wasn’t the easier year. Heck, it was one hell of a year. But here I am, at the end of it, still standing strong. Can’t say every single thing that happened in 2018, but what I learned is to always have hope.   *** Hope is kindness. Hope for a better future. Hope that there is good in every single thing that happens, good or bad. *** I also learned to move on That this life is ever changing, and time is always ticking We are never going to be perfect, and that there will always be moments when we will think about what we did and wishes that we have never done that. But what is the fun of that ? With no scars, no mistakes, no failures, you will not learn and you will not grow. So, Move On !!! *** Move on from the past. Move on from toxic people and environment. Move on from these insecurities that tell you that ypu wil

As a teenager, I remember being very sociable and expressive with my words, and sometimes being so childish. I'm letting go of all my annoyance over anything that happened, and sometimes people around me had a difficult time because of me. In my early 20s, I lived through a number of different, what I like to call, “learning experiences”. I remember feeling so confused and lost in a rush of emotions that I wasn’t able to verbally express in real words. I tried my best to write them down hoping that one day the words might come together and manifest a personal testimony. Looking back at them now, most of my thoughts were around family and relationships. This was when my strongest feelings, opinions and triggers were being formed subconsciously. Now in my mid-20s, I find myself living through a different set of obstacles. Career-related goals, personal development, health maintenance, etc are what consume the majority of my mental capacity; but at the end of the da